My first book, BIRTH MOTHER, available for the Kindle, opens in the weeks preceding Christmas 1975. I longed to celebrate the holiday with my family in Hillsboro, Kansas, but the relationships were tense.
Why, after having a baby out of wedlock, did I take new lovers like I was sampling chocolates?
What did my worldly lifestyle lead people to think about our Mennonite Brethren family?
And, when was I ever going to begin to have a personal relationship with Jesus?
Six years earlier, on Christmas eve 1969, my son Matthew William was born. Three days later I gave him to a social worker. Soon he was in his new home, in the process of being adopted by a loving Western Kansas family. As I understood the law, adoption meant “final surrender” and I would never see him again.
Since then, the holidays always triggered bleak, black states of being. Now as the 1975 festive season approached, I attempted to solve my problem by launching a Christmas road trip to Mexico with my current boyfriend and my dog, Perfect Master Lord Shiva. However, my dog was soon run over by a truck, my van’s transmission broke down, my friend left me to go back to school, and I was out of money.
After a 7.3 earthquake, I disappeared into the social chaos of Guatemala City, playing a temporary role as La Maestra with a street gang, embracing a dark, dangerous, and all-absorbing way of life.
A journal of my journey toward wholeness, my book BIRTH MOTHER includes drawings and Mennonite and Guatemalan recipes. The book includes descriptions of the closed adoption process in Kansas in 1969, and my experiences at the Salvation Army Home for Unwed Mothers in Wichita, Kansas.
If you are an Amazon Prime member, you can read this Kindle version at no cost. Others can purchase the Kindle version for $2.99. I am working to make a hardcopy version available on Amazon later this year.
If this book resonates with you, please be in touch and write a review on the Amazon page for my book!
The incredibly perfect cover illustration is by Ellen Greene, an artist born and raised in Lawrence, Kansas, and a friend from our homeschool association when our family lived in Chicago.